Cleaning Up The…(Part 1)

Have you ever gone through your life thinking that “This is all you are meant to be” or “How can I make a change in my life to get ahead”. First things first, you need to clear your space whether it be your thoughts, your clutter in your home, the clutter in your life and so on. Mine consisted of all of the above types.

First was the cleaning up of home clutter. Either giving away, selling or just plain getting rid of the unwantedness of stuff. I still have too much “STUFF” in my home but it is a comfortable level of stuff now.  And some what organized.   Organization is important for me.  If things go unorganized for too long, I become a bit crazy.

Next is dealing with the clutter in my mind. I am the type that gets confused about my thoughts and feelings easily.  When things or people touch my heart (and no not literally ;]) I tend to become overly attached. There are a few that can attest to this.  Give me work and I am great…no confusion. Matters of the heart…confusion ten fold.  So cleaning up matters of the heart and getting things straight in my mind. I need to be able to concentrate to be able to think and feelings tend to fog up my thinking capabilities big time.

The clutter in my life…that is a bit harder to do.  Work is the main thing in my focus and what I love to do.  Then family and friends…this is not how it should be but this is how I stay mainly sane.

Just recently I took stock of the people I care about in my life.  I realized that the people I care about are not necessarily on the same thinking scope as I am.  What do you do in this situation?  I needed to let go of those people…clean out the attic per say.  I have some regrets but I think in the long run, it will benefit the people I care about and who are in my life continuously.   The ones I can say I honestly love and respect in my life.   Thank you for being in my life.

So now I need to take stock of my life and where I want it to be.  This is my next step.  I will let you know more when I find the answers to this question.  The pre-footwork is done to think things out properly now.

TO BE CONTINUED…..

Continuance…

Just a quick update on the weight loss and body toning…body toning working out well. Picking up an exercise ball next payday. I found doing ab crunches and body stretching worked really well on the ball.

Weight loss…unsure at this time. Needing to pick up a new scale. I don’t feel like I have lost weight but I have also been toning a bit.

Also looking into different types of meditation. I found in the past meditation by music was the most successful for me. My main choice of meditative music is Loreena McKennitt…anything with a Celtic/Asian-Indian tone worked best.

Off for a bit. Cheers and <3 to everyone. Keep you spirits up.

Motto: Live, laugh, love, learn and be happy <3

Unbelievable Past Few Months…

Over the past few months I have had a wealth of things happen and in the end all things turned out to be good things.

The first thing was moving out of a good friends place and moving into the wonderful community of Sidney, BC (actually North Saanich but a very short jaunt down the road and I am in Sidney).  The move was like any move people make in their lives…stressful.  And this will be the last move for quite awhile.  Six in the last 2 years is way too many moving dates.

The next thing was fighting an ailment that I had no idea what it was.  I started out waking up sore.  It progressed to it being very difficult to walk and not being able to concentrate.  I had no balance.  I went through multiple doctor appointments and tests to find out what it was.  It wasn’t until I let my doc know that my eyeballs were sore and giving me a headache that he wanted me tested for glaucoma.  My first thoughts were…”Oh my God…not again”.  I had been tested for glaucoma about 7-8 years ago and tests came back negative then.  I was instructed by doc to get my eyes tested for glaucoma immediately which I did.  I did the testing and all signs for glaucoma were quashed.  I have optic nerve placing in such a way on my eyes that I could never et glaucoma.  But I did find out that I needed glasses for reading but also to correct for stigmatism.  Glasses ordered and all is well.  When your eyes start to go on you, your body really does feel it.  Take care of yourself peeps!!!

The next thing was two weeks of hives (welts usually caused by allergies or extreme stresses on your body).  I had tried Benadryl, ice cold rubs, calamine lotion and Aveeno (for the oatmeal base for itching).  Finally between Ed and a friend, I went to the docs to find out what I could do.  What the doc prescribed was 3 days of Prednisone in a high dose to help whatever allergy I had.  It worked and feeling non-itchy again (laughter).

My car is my baby (except for my Desmo – black Sylvestor looking cat).  The first thing at hand was a brake job.  Brake job done and brakes work good again.   The next thing was a new battery.  Got an Eliminator from Canadian Tire.  Good warranty.  The final thing that happened that was really unexpected was one of the drive pulleys for the alternator snapped right off while I was driving to work the other day.  Had the car towed to Reg Midgley Motors – Service Department on the Colwwod Crawl (in Colwood by A&W and Subaru lol).  They did an awesome job and I had my car back the next morning and the pricing was reasonable for the tow and the work done.  They have my business always.

So all in all, health good again (still working on the weight thing – sometimes up but going down), new place Ed and I call the home on the bay, his place is the home on the lake, and the car is still my baby.  Life is good and I feel great!!!!

Cheers & <3

Friendship.

I think I need clarification on the word “Friendship”.  Does this one word mean so much different in today’s world than it did in days gone past?  I don’t know but I see many things in my life now that lead me to believe that this is the case.

I have few friends in my life that I call true friends, friends that I would do anything in the world for.  These people know who they are.  They know that I will always be there for them if they need me unless I really can’t.  They know that they can come to me with good and bad news…I will listen and try and help if I can. And I know that if I ever need them, they will be there for me in a heart beat.  I found this out when moving to Victoria and within Victoria.  I don’t like asking people for help, but I really needed it this time.  They saw this too.  And because they know this about me, they offered the help which I gladly accepted.  I need to ask for help sometimes when I need it.

Communication is the keystone of any type of relationship.  Sometimes listening is the key thing that can change a relationship from okay to great.  And sometimes I need to work on this.  But the people I hold dear in my life, the communication is there.  I know we are there for each other in our lives.  And sometimes I communicate too much and this can be a problem at times especially when there is little feedback on the issue at hand.  I have one person in my life right now where I am not sure where we stand as friends due to the communication and listening factor.  We will see how this transpires.

Just always be there for the ones you love (any type of relationship) and hold dear in your life…hopefully they know this and communicate to you the way friends should.

Any comments are welcome on this.  Thanks for reading.

UPDATE TO THIS!!!

I need to express that each and everyone of the people I deem as friends, whether long time or fairly new, I cherish and would always be there for them if they ever needed me to be there.  With this said, I hope they understand this and understand why sometines I get upset at their actions and want to help or get frustrated at the things they do or don’t do.  This may not make me right in how I deal with these people but as a friend they should be able to understand what I am saying and know that whether I like their advice or not, I will listen to their side or to comments they have about me.  And I really do take all comments or advice to heart no matter what anyone thinks.

Update on My Dating Situation…

Well, what can I say.  I am in a relationship again at this point in my life.

At the beginning of September I had gone to Port Angeles to meet Lee.  We had been talking online and finally decided it was time to meet in person.  We did and we had a wonderful time.  In the first week after we met, there was some trying moments and some wonderful moments.  It is hard when you live in a distance relationship especially when the relationship is cross-borders.  I had doubts about things, about how this would work, if it worked out who would move where.  The work situation would be an issue for both of us.

We talked every day, texted alot, emailed each other and just tried to be there for each other.  When he found out that he had to go to help his parents out for a few months regarding medicals issues that they have, all of this became a reality for me.  I got a bit scared of everything.  And this was just the first week after we actually had met.  We continued to keep in contact and I voiced my concerns about us and Lee just continued to try and put my fears to rest.

In talking tonight, we had discussed where we see our relationship heading.  We decided that being in a relationship with each other was the right thing for us at this time.  Many things will still need to be discussed when Lee returns from his parents but we continue to talk every night, being there for each other and supporting each other.  A relationship And we are both very happy with this decision.

We have not discussed the distance situation at this time.  But when Lee returns, we will figure this out.

I will give more of an update on how things are going when Lee returns and we decide on what more we are doing and the plans we are making.

Cheers and Goodnight to all <3