Oh Horoscope, Lead The Way…

Today I read my horoscope early thinking that it may provide me with some insight to things I have been going through lately. I don’t normally write down my dreams…I go with the flow of how I am feeling and what I am thinking at that particular time.  This may be something I might start doing for a bit just to see what dream interpretation has to say and how true this actually may be with regard to the human subconscious and the role it can play in our day to day lives.

I believe you make your own fate.  If you have strong beliefs or goals that you wish to have come true, you can make it happen…if you really want to make it work and work hard to achieve your goals or dreams.  A horoscope write-up can only help to broaden or shorten your thinking.  You have all of the control of you and your thoughts, goals, dreams, and desires.  Cheers <3

Here is what MSN Astrologers had to say:

Dee Sun Sign: Libra October 4 Edit your Profile Today | Tomorrow | This Week | This Month

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Your horoscope for January 14, 2009 Dreams with a mixed content might trouble your sleep tonight. At one point you’ll be having a wonderful dream, and the next dream might be black and gloomy. Write them down, Dee. The message of the dream is probably more positive than the dream itself appears. Worries about money might plague you throughout the day, yet things probably aren’t as bad as they seem. Make sure you learn the facts about your situation before allowing yourself to panic!

How I am Feeling…

Today was a day of revelation in my life on some things and has also put me into a bit of a depression in others.

I realized that I am the maker of all good and bad that happens in my life.  I have also realized that the past should remain the past…whether friends, relationships, acquaintances etc.  I finally let some of my past go today and have some reservations about it.  This person meant a lot to me…but I know I was just a pest and tormented him and usually on a day to day basis.  Thanks for putting up with me…I appreciate it.

With this said, I am at a standstill in my life on a lot of things right now and it has me wondering “What the HECK am I doing and how in the HECK do I snap out of a mini-depressed state that I am in”.

I usually listen to music which helps put me in a different frame of mind…usually a good one.  Today this is not working.  I love taking photographs but as of late photography has been the last thing on my mind.  I have posted pictures from Flickr on Twitter for people to see but I think I am doing this to get some sort of recognition…of which I really do not deserve.  I am a hobbyist photographer and usually do not need the “pat on the back” for the pictures I have taken.  Lately I do need this recognition.

I always dreamed that in my life I would have it all…a wonderful person to share my life with, a family (kids), a job I enjoy working at and recognition to validate these things in my life.  I am 41 years old now, almost divorced, no kids but I have a job I like doing.  I have been dating people for the last year and half and meeting lots of interesting people that I try to keep as friends if I can…mainly because they are great people in general.

But it all comes down to “Am I happy?” and “What am I going to do to make the changes in my life I need?”  I have ideas and am going to putting these ideas into play between now and the New Year and see where I am in a few months.  Everything takes time…this I know.  I am living day by day at this time in my life and until I get a handle on me, it will be day to day for awhile.

Hugz to all who read this and the only thing I have to say is:

LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE, LEARN and be HAPPY!!!  Don’t take your life for granted and make sure you let the ones closest to you know how much they mean to you.  Love to all.  <3

Making Mistakes In Life…Regrets or No Regrets!

Lately I have been thinking about all of the things that have transpired in my life and dealings with people.  With this I have realized that I have made many mistakes, especially this last year.  Most of my mistakes have to do with relationships (being friendship or otherwise).  How come things have to be so hard all of the time?  Well, part of it is me…I speak my mind on matters when I see fit.  And sometimes when I shouldn’t as well.

I am the type of person that will voice my opinions, good, bad or indifferent, when I see fit.  I will get in a debate when I so choose and in a topic that I know about and can debate properly. I will tell a friend off at a moments notice knowing that I might lose that person from my life.  I speak what is on my mind.  Sometimes not a good thing but if I can make that person think about what I said, then at least it was worth it.

So with this said above, I guess there is really only one regret I have…losing friendship because of these traits of mine.  But with that said, I am not going to change my ways for anyone unless they are going to try and accept me for who I am right off the start.  This lesson I learned while married.  I didn’t have this respect in my marriage.

I have come to the conclusions that even though many people may view me as not their equal (could be intellect, status, emotionally,etc) I am a smart, intelligent person with a heart of gold.  Please don’t judge me because I don’t necessarily want to sit around and talk politics 24/7, tech 24/7, cameras 24/7…the list may go on and on.  I like many avenues of life…not just what you may like.

I want to enjoy life and all that life has to offer and now I am trying to find ways to do this.  Just let me be and don’t try to change me.  Join me!!!

If You Love Her…

In the wee hours of this morning, I wrote a letter to a friend re: love and that special someone in your life.  You may laugh at this and think that I am totally off my rocker or you might ponder what I have written to this person.  Read and enjoy…all comments are welcome.

“This is the last letter I am going to say to you on this subject…on any subject with you.  I am sure you will be happy about this.

1. If you love someone…truly deep down in your heart, want to hold and protect them, treasure them till the    end of time, grow old together LOVE them, then tell them and mean it.  Same goes for being in love with someone.  Don’t say it unless you really mean it.

2. Don’t rush things…take things a little slower.   I know I am one to talk but sex does not always have to be the first and foremost thing to do in the start of a relationship…any type of a relationship.

3. Be honest and sincere and communicate your feelings and thoughts to them…let them know how much they mean to you but let them know why and communicate these through words and body language.

4. If saying goodnight to a person you are dating, do not say “Goodnight Sarah” when her name is Jessica.  Fake names used to make a point only.

5. If still into the adult websites, don’t hide this.  Bring this person into this world with you if that is what they want.  If that is not what they want, then you have to decide what means more to you…Cyber / Internet gratification or the real thing.  Honestly Hun…you can’t have it both ways unless the other person wants the same thing(s) you do.

6. If not really in a relationship with the person, don’t talk about other women to that person.  Definitely a turn off especially if all you want is sex.  We don’t want to hear about all of the other women in your life unless it’s your kids or family.

7. If sexual arousal is an issue, then communicate this to your partner and tell her what you like and don’t like instead of asking her what she likes and doesn’t like all of the time.  A woman can’t read your thoughts and we like to know what you like too.

8. Make sure your place is tidy.  Hire a maid two times a month.  This tells a lot about a person and how they are in relationships.  Women like to see that a man can take care of themselves as well as maybe the woman taking care of you.

9. Very important.  During sexual relations, do not call her by another woman’s name.  This has been done to me by you and others and if a woman is in the mood, this will cure that really quick.  If you are thinking about someone else while having sex with the person you are with…call out your own name instead.  The woman may laugh and think “OMG…he is in love with himself”, but the sex drive will still be there.  Not an honest thing to do but will save a lot of problems if you just can’t help yourself.

10. Put the damn cell phone away when you are with someone unless you are truly working.  Give the person you are with your undivided attention.  Going from experience, I put up with it but it pissed me off to no ends when you were out with me somewhere and were constantly answering/texting/checking that damn thing.

11. Don’t ever go on about your past relationships (even the bad ones… like ours) unless you want to at some point drive that person away.  I am no better but I heard my fair share about your past relationships and it always made me feel inferior to your past.  The person that you are with should feel like she is the only one for you…whether you have a past or not.  Kids and animals are definitely an exception.  That person you are with needs to fully accept this part of your life and understand that there will be times that the kids will take precedence.

12. If you make her feel like your Queen, she will more than likely make you feel like you are her King.

13. Lastly (but I am sure I can go on for a few more)… Make sure you are truly happy with yourself and your life before bringing someone else into your world.  If you have issues, she will pick up on it right away.  If minor issues…she may brush it off and help you to deal with things.  If major issues, let her know but don’t go into a dramatic scene and raise red flags.  Don’t expect the relationship to last if that happens.

Now in saying all of this, you have made it very clear to me tonight that you don’t want my help.  I will respect that decision.  But with how you answered my question re: me…I can’t let that go.  I really deserve a little more than “Honestly I don’t care right now.”    Get back to me when you have a decent answer to my question.

Bfn”