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My Experiences with Internet Dating!!! (Part 2 of 2)

September 3, 2008

To carry on with my story, I went to Port Angeles, Washington to meet Lee.  The ferry trip was excellent.  Had an opportunity to take lots of photos, including some of Lee.  He picked me up from the ferry.  We had decided that since it was almost 10 pm just to go pick up some icecream and go back to his place and watch a movie.  The movie “Monty Pythons – The Holy Grail”.  Awesome movie to watch on a first meeting.

I do have to tell you that Lee was the perfect gentleman and I never felt worried, afraid or anxious around him or even with staying at his place. It’s that gut feeling of mine finally kicking in again.  And contrary to popular belief, you can meet a guy, stay at his place and not have sexual relations LOL.

The next morning, we headed out to breakfast (we like our breakfast exactly the same way lol) then Lee took me around to see Port Angeles and surrounding areas and gave me some history about PA.  I had an excellent time and didn’t really want to head back to Victoria, BC yet but you know…obligations.  We talked a little more, held hands alot, and kissed.  Then it was time for me to head home. We have MSN’d each other a bit since.  There are many things for the two of us to consider getting into dating internationally.  We had also discussed this.

I don’t know where this is going to lead but is just dating (right now) and not classed as a relationship.  I can not commit to anyone that quickly.  I have my own demons that I am still dealing with regarding the growing pains of love and dating but I am slowly working through them.

How needing and being needed relates to internet dating?

During my marriage, I had gained about 100lbs and it has been aweful to try and get rid of it but it is slowly coming off.  When I finally decided to leave our marriage, I needed to find something to make me feel good about myself again.

That is when I got into the internet dating scene.  I needed someone to show me attention to help me feel better about myself again.  I met quite a few people, some I dated and some were, after the first date, deamed not for me.  I quickly regained my self esteem and got what I needed from the person(s) to keep me going.  I felt if this person is paying attention to me then they must need me or want me to be in their lives.  Boy was I wrong!!!  Not the best way to handle things.  I had a lot of people worried about me and how I was handling things.  And it caused me no end of heartache because I believe in love and wanted someone to love me so much I would have done almost anything to make it happen.  I had actually tried almost everything with one person… trying to hold him in my life because I believed that he was the one I was supposed to be with.  Again, boy was I wrong.  I was thinking with my heart and head and not using my gut feeling to avoid a bad situation.  He is still in my life more as an acquaintance than anything but if he ever needed anything, I would still be there for him.  And I think he would be there for me aswell.

I am now at this point in my life happy, working on being totally healthy again, energetic, and have realized that the right person will come along when it is time.  I do still meet people the old fashioned way…no computers…but the internet dating scene is good for meeting people when I really don’t have the time to get out there and socialize and meet people.  Right now, meeting people online is the fastest and easiest way for me to initially meet people to maybe get to the point of actually meeting people.

I hope this post made sense.  I have a lot of stuff going through these lines to express my whole self.  It would take a book to finish expressing myself (with a lot of repetition along the way).  I will keep you informed about my relationship status when it finally happens.

Cheers and thank you for reading :)

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My Experiences with Internet Dating!!! (Part 1 of 2)

September 1, 2008

In my life, I have dated, had relationships of great value, broken up with, been broken up with, married, separated and now basically divorced.  I remember each and every one of these times and look back to see what I have learned from past love experiences.

One thing I have realized about myself is that I love to be in love and loved to be and feel loved by someone.  This is not an uncommon thing for people to want to feel this in their lives.  With this said, I also want to feel and be needed by someone but I also want them to know that I need them in return.  This is not an easy thing for me to express to someone…that I need you.  I have always been the needed one.  I need to work on this.

How does this relate to the world of internet dating?  This coming up!!!

I have never been a person that really enjoyed going to a bar or cabaret to meet men with the hopes of making a potential love contact.  I went with my friends to socialize and dance and have a few drinks.  It was always fairly easy for me to strike up a conversation with a person, get to know them through a couple of dates and then know whether I wanted to take it further or not.  This was in the past when my life was not as busy as now and with technology so much more in my life.

I have and still use online dating sites to meet people as my life doesn’t always allow me the time and opportunity to get out in the real world to meet people.  Actually I met my ex-husband through a local bulletin board site in Campbell River, BC.  “Fred’s Fine Files” is what it was called and the guy who operated it was named Mike…funny that.  Brian and I were married for 12 years and are still friends to this day.  To carry on with my story…

Since being separated, I have been on a host of sites to meet new people (including Lavalife $$$ and EHarmony $$$) and have finally just stuck it out with Plenty of Fish.  It’s free…it’s world wide…it’s easy to use…the only thing is the user plane is not really nice to use (but who am I to complain…it’s free).  I have chatted and met quite a few people who I have remained friends with aswell as dated or am still dating.  There have been a few that have been very difficult situations in my life and since I am the “a bit naive and I wear my heart on my sleeve” type of person, have had a little bit of heart ache because of it.  I attribute some of it as my own fault…actually alot of it.  This is how I am growing.

Just recently, I have made plans to meet Lee, a new friend of mine from Plenty of Fish, in Port Angeles, Washington.  We will see how this transpires.  I will let you know when I return tomorrow.  Coffee, walking, talking and taking pictures of the sights etc…I am looking forward to it.

So I will continue this story after my trip to Port Angeles.  Safe journey to all, including myself, and have an awesome day tomorrow.  Life is only as much of an adventure as you make it!!!  Make it real and good :-)

Bfn

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If You Love Her…

August 30, 2008

In the wee hours of this morning, I wrote a letter to a friend re: love and that special someone in your life.  You may laugh at this and think that I am totally off my rocker or you might ponder what I have written to this person.  Read and enjoy…all comments are welcome.

“This is the last letter I am going to say to you on this subject…on any subject with you.  I am sure you will be happy about this.

1. If you love someone…truly deep down in your heart, want to hold and protect them, treasure them till the    end of time, grow old together LOVE them, then tell them and mean it.  Same goes for being in love with someone.  Don’t say it unless you really mean it.

2. Don’t rush things…take things a little slower.   I know I am one to talk but sex does not always have to be the first and foremost thing to do in the start of a relationship…any type of a relationship.

3. Be honest and sincere and communicate your feelings and thoughts to them…let them know how much they mean to you but let them know why and communicate these through words and body language.

4. If saying goodnight to a person you are dating, do not say “Goodnight Sarah” when her name is Jessica.  Fake names used to make a point only.

5. If still into the adult websites, don’t hide this.  Bring this person into this world with you if that is what they want.  If that is not what they want, then you have to decide what means more to you…Cyber / Internet gratification or the real thing.  Honestly Hun…you can’t have it both ways unless the other person wants the same thing(s) you do.

6. If not really in a relationship with the person, don’t talk about other women to that person.  Definitely a turn off especially if all you want is sex.  We don’t want to hear about all of the other women in your life unless it’s your kids or family.

7. If sexual arousal is an issue, then communicate this to your partner and tell her what you like and don’t like instead of asking her what she likes and doesn’t like all of the time.  A woman can’t read your thoughts and we like to know what you like too.

8. Make sure your place is tidy.  Hire a maid two times a month.  This tells a lot about a person and how they are in relationships.  Women like to see that a man can take care of themselves as well as maybe the woman taking care of you.

9. Very important.  During sexual relations, do not call her by another woman’s name.  This has been done to me by you and others and if a woman is in the mood, this will cure that really quick.  If you are thinking about someone else while having sex with the person you are with…call out your own name instead.  The woman may laugh and think “OMG…he is in love with himself”, but the sex drive will still be there.  Not an honest thing to do but will save a lot of problems if you just can’t help yourself.

10. Put the damn cell phone away when you are with someone unless you are truly working.  Give the person you are with your undivided attention.  Going from experience, I put up with it but it pissed me off to no ends when you were out with me somewhere and were constantly answering/texting/checking that damn thing.

11. Don’t ever go on about your past relationships (even the bad ones… like ours) unless you want to at some point drive that person away.  I am no better but I heard my fair share about your past relationships and it always made me feel inferior to your past.  The person that you are with should feel like she is the only one for you…whether you have a past or not.  Kids and animals are definitely an exception.  That person you are with needs to fully accept this part of your life and understand that there will be times that the kids will take precedence.

12. If you make her feel like your Queen, she will more than likely make you feel like you are her King.

13. Lastly (but I am sure I can go on for a few more)… Make sure you are truly happy with yourself and your life before bringing someone else into your world.  If you have issues, she will pick up on it right away.  If minor issues…she may brush it off and help you to deal with things.  If major issues, let her know but don’t go into a dramatic scene and raise red flags.  Don’t expect the relationship to last if that happens.

Now in saying all of this, you have made it very clear to me tonight that you don’t want my help.  I will respect that decision.  But with how you answered my question re: me…I can’t let that go.  I really deserve a little more than “Honestly I don’t care right now.”    Get back to me when you have a decent answer to my question.

Bfn”

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Horoscopes – Are you a Believer?

August 29, 2008

Lately, I have been paying more and more attention to what the words in my previous day’s horoscopes says.  I have been doing this to see how accurate to me and my day the words were.  I have been amazed countless times at how accurate these readings are.

I just read this one from yesterday since, right this moment in time (1:37 am), I am wide awake.  I usually read these the morning after.  Here is what it said:

Dee
Sun Sign: Libra
October 4

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Your horoscope for August 28, 2008 Things may feel a little out of whack for you today, Dee. With the energy that’s coming from the day’s aspects, feelings of agitation, anger or restlessness can be common. Keep this in mind as you go about your business – especially if you find yourself in any sort of confrontation. The likelihood of being reactive rather than proactive is greater and things may be said in haste only to be regretted later. Talk a walk to cool down if necessary.

Daily Planetary Overview When Mercury enters Libra today, you will have a strong sense of justice. This transit will aid teamwork…

I thought this was very true to what I had been going through the day before.

How can something hit square on the head when only the basic of all basic information is given to produce these results?   Date of birth is all that I had given them initially. No other information had been given.

I am looking into the background/history of Astrology and hoping to write an additional post about this.

The only piece of advice today is “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” Bye for now.

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Internet: So Easy to Lose Track of Time

August 22, 2008

This is just a quick post about the internet and how easy it is to lose track of time while using the internet.

I have been online listening to Gnomedex 2008 (BTW  Thanks to Chris Pirillo and all of the guest speakers so far) and on Twitter making the usual comments I do plus and have just now realized that it is 4:16pm pacific time.  Where did the day go?  I can tell you where the day went…I have been listening to speakers of non-profit organizations, listening to the creators of ICANHAZACHEESEBURGER (hopefully spelled right) and on flickr viewing new and current contacts pictures.

I would not change this day for anything as I got the chance to hear very inspiring words by 2 very talented, real people talk about their causes.  Beth Kanter (http://beth.typepad.com/) and Amanda Koster (http://salaamgarage.com/) have been working with adults and children in underdeveloped countires to help make their lives better.  Please have a look at these sites and if you can help out through donations or even aid of some additional sorts…please do.

The other non-profit cause out there that I have become aware of in the last month or so is the cause Tanya Davis (aka Netchick  http://netchick.ca/) is part of.  Tanya is part of http://www.95crave.com/events/100/737921/team+diabetes team in helping to raise money for diabetes awareness.  Please read her blog and give to help a good cause.

I had to take a break to make a coffee and have a bite to eat as I have been immersed online for all of today.  And then I had to write about it.

Please help all causes listed in this post.  And send Chris and Ponzi Pirillo “Kudos” for bringing Beth Kanter and Amanda Koster to Gnomedex 2008 to speak about their cause.